Readers, the past several months have proven to be more challenging than ever expecte - yet I remain in my strong desire to keep my faith and my resolve in it even another step stronger.
Having had several major trials in my personal life, over th course of years - this past 4 months specifically have been putting me to the test, pushing me to the limit, and really trying my patience. And though I am
no better than anyone reading this, I have chosen to NOT be shaken thru it all, which in turn has kept me sain and focused on Christ first and foremost in all I do.
On personal aspect that has been
an issue, starting in Mid August - I will not comment on yet. However, the second item - dealing directly with my health, started in early August - and I will refer to this for this blog. Bear/bare (LOL) with me! :)
On August 10 of this 2017, I was to have Spine surgery. This was postponed due to my Blood Pressure being 200 plus over 143 during Pre Operation proceedures. For which I had to go thru a series of testing and checkign
in with a Cardiologist for several weeks, before being given the okay to reschedule the surgery I needed. The issue with my health, from spine damage, was getting worse - and took another turn downward with the delay of the operation I was in need of.
Finally the Surgery was sceduled for October 26 - and we were off and running, having to go thru a second pretesting exam and other inconveniences to get me to have a safe time on the operating table.
a head cold is just a head cold and sometimes it is the enemy attacking. So, I knew with a growing and forward moving ministry, this was an enemy attack that delayed this process in the first place. And avoiding any and all temptations to curse
God, I was in good Spirits and sharing the word of God getting ready for 10/26. Then, immediately after the surgery some complications set in, and I spent 5 days in the hosptial instead of going home on the second or third morning.
Having things going well the first 14 - 16 days, all of a sudden there was a new problem I had to deal with just before seeing the Doctor for the first followup and removal of stitches. The Xray revealed one
of the pieces of hardward they placed between the discs, had moved/backed out of it's position, and a CAT scan that same afternoon showed it was on the nerve, which was causing the new type of pain and discomfort. So, we went back into surgery that very
Thursday November 16 - exactly 3 weeks to the day from original. Fortunately, this time around I was home within 24 hours... again, the operation itself was successful. Let me note here, I felt a huge difference after the completion of the surgery
on Oct. 26, and knew my quality of life, walking and my Back were immensely improved.
That said, 12 days later, Nov. 28th - I am in a car accident and the same hardware (a "cage"), to seperate my
discs, is knocked out of place again. On December 5th the surgergeon (who is a blessing, and wonderful) goes over the new Xray and we discusss the need for a third surgery to repair the damage, before too much time goes by. We are scheduled for
December 21st, after the consideration of having it done immediately that week on the 7th. Sadly, I could not fathom that soon of a third surgery - as much as I know it needs to take place - but I also had been out of work for many weeks (plus the time
off I missed in August) really was reaking havoc on my finances. Yet thru it all I knew God was in conrtol, and would supply for our monitary needs as we went along. So, with much help lifting, I was blessed to work 2 DJ events and have a bit of
income - plus get away from cabin fever for two evenings.
Viewing much Hillsong television, and hearing good messages from the Pastor at the current church I am attending - I found strength thru
all of this to stay positive - to Praise the Lord in ALL things. This can and could only happen thru a God who loves me, and I know he does. I know His son died and was shamed on the cross for me (and you!) for His love for us in so far beyond
what we can fathom. That does not mean we all cannot realize that this God, this Jesus, is the real deal. The world may look at me and say it is all mind over matter, or wow is he in denial for all the trash he has been dealt. Sorry
world - and take heart - this is all because of God's work in my life, keeping me strong in His Love, for only real love can come from God and God alone.
Bottom line, dear Brothers and Sisters.
I know many peeople who struggle and have been struggling for years - and my heart bleeds for them. My heart aches for those who see life as a continueous battle and feel defeated. Being in Christ does not elminiate the battles - but it makes them
easier to win. To be able to look at a situation, and praise God for putting you thru it - knowing that you are loved by Him. What He thinks of you is all that counts - not what the world throws at you.
I will end here, and add more and maybe do some break down(s) of each part of the message I am sharing here. Having heard a recent sermon on the word "steady" was even more a sign from God that He wants me to help
and share with others. I need to learn to be stronger in that way, as I have found it is easy to witness these truths to strangers, and tough to share with people you have known and loved for a long time. To which I have to remind myself, that
I should be witnessing to the ones I love as much as those who are new in my life.
As always, I pray this made some sense to you the reader. Please email with questions and comments - feedback
is always welcome.
With much love and in Christ,